So, right now, I'm back. I needed a break for the last few weeks, I haven't been feeling too well, but right now, I feel fine, except that I have to work quite a lot and the job is not very easy.
I'm happy when I'll find a new one, maybe one of the bookshops which I asked two months ago need new people now - we'll see. It would be an Opportunity to earn more money.
I had a couple of problems with my boss, I also have some problems in private live, but I know myself - The little warrior, who will stand up and fight. This time, it happened even faster than I thought, and I only want to say a last few words to someone who can just leave my life:
Aren't you ashamed of yourself? You know, if I would have known about the other girl earlier, I would have send you right into the desert allready, and not now, now, where the damage has been done. SHE doesn't know anything about it, but I would quite love to tell her what a jerk you are! She's pregnant god damnit! And I didn't know ANYTHING about her, who told me? Your EX! Who actually still lives at your place! Who the hell are you kidding, man? I hope you won't play the girl again, damn, she's pregnant, she deserves more than something like that! Your becoming a FATHER. Take some Responsibility, you're 25, not 15!
I don't wish to talk to you again. You exactly know why, and I don't need people who lie to me, and you seemed to have done that quite a lot and very often. You know, I'd even rather talk to my ex again, at least HE did know, that he made mistakes.
And you, you just run away because your afraid of the truth! And the truth would be that YOU did something eternally wrong and absurd and I could just kick you for betraying your PREGNANT GIRLFRIEND!!!! And I will NOT help you with this crap when it comes to cheating! I am no little darling who shares, and I am certainly not going to live with the thought that there is another girl who's pregnant.
So live your life and I will live mine! I do hope, you will learn, that playing girls is not the best thing to do.
(This theme has ended, anyone who's interested, just send me a comment or something like that)
So, I let out my negative feelings.
But of course it's not really the only thing, which I wanted to talk about. A couple of days ago, I watched a little TV after work (or was it before? I don't quite remember).. Well, there he was, the pope, talking about abortion and sex and alcohol.
Everybody, who knows me, also knows that I'm critical. So there I sat, while he said that abortion is murder, and that no woman should do something like that. And I thought... Well, what about women, who got raped and get pregnant? Honestly, I admire woman, who can do it, but there are some, they just can't do it. They always think about the men, who raped them. Aren't they then aloud to just decide for themselves? Some will say, that when the baby is born it could be adopted, but just think - this woman will carry a child from her RAPER for 9 months. Is this then murder, or is it a way to save themselves from more physical stress, that they have?
Also the commercial of today. It tells us, that only slim women are sexy, pretty and worth looking at. But not every woman can be slim. Not every woman wants to be slim. What about them? Are they ugly, just because they don't follow commercials, or whatever this world wants? That's why I like the dove commercials. THEY show women, who have all kind of figures, and not only slim ones. Look at the models, look how they hunger, in order to wear clothes size 0 just to please everyone. And girls look at these models and want to look at them and stop eating, because they are scared to gain weight.
Other girls want to destroy themselves, others think they deserve it that way, and others think they don't deserve. Gosh that makes me so sad. Beautiful girls, who hunger, out of different reasons. Okay, I'm no better, but still. What is this about having to be slim? Come on people, not everyone can be a Heidi Klum. And I don't think, that every guy out there only likes slim girls.
It's not only about how you look, but also about who the hell you are. Even if you're very pretty, what use is it, if you have no brains at all? What use is it to be slim, or pretty, if you have a bad character?
We live in a world, where most people think that the looks count the most, and forget over these things, that it's the character that make people, and not only make-up, clothes, or looks. It's rather sad to see something like that.