It's crazy, how much you think about in your life, how much you wish for, and how many things you don't get the way you would like to get them - or you don't get them at all.
Honestly, I've been thinking quite a lot these last few months. ANd now I also have to think of a present for a very very good friend of mine. Geez. It's hard to find something, honestly. It's pretty hard. I get the feeling I have to get her something really good, something brilliant! But I don't know what. Could kick myself. I had an idea, but it would take to long until they send it, and if I do it somewhere else...Heaven knows how much I pay then. I know it's her birthday, but I wanted to buy her other things, too, and that I probally can't when I do it that way. Crap. Damnit. Hope I can get what I wanted to get her for Christmas then. Maybe I should buy it NOW, so that I have it until Christmas.
And my CD burner doesn't work either. Or else I would have made her a video and burned it on CD. Great, wonderful Kelly. Only because I didn't have money anymore. I'll find something. I'll just have to look closer, and then we will see. It won't be anything what she got me, I hope that will be okay for her... (Not, that she doesn't have any other birthdays or there'll never be christmas again).
I know, some will say I'm 19 but I got Duck Tales today . Rather funny. I have quite a lot of kids movie for my age :P But I won't get rid of them, either. I rather like then :P I even watch them.
Ah, only 7 days left until my friend from Austria shows up and I'll show her Frankfurt I'm going to stalk the City, the Nidda (a river with lots of green and benches and things Kelly will trip over, as always), the Nordwestzentrum (we'll be there quite a few times).. Let me see. She wants to go to the Zoo (bad Idea. No animals in our Zoo.). She wants to go the cinema (okay, good idea, I love movies ). Shopping, too. And tons of pictures. Oh man, I don't want to think about how many pictures we are going to take of each other. Probally pics like.."Yeah, well, that's how Kelly sits in the tram line" or "Kelly and her favourite Hobby - a Book." "Cindy with the most dreadful hat I have ever seen in my life" or "Cindy in Frankfurt - run for your life" ^^. We are childish But that's okay.
So actually I don't really have anything special to write about right now. Nothing new is happening, no dazzling guys, no new books.. But I'm still reading. Right now it's...."First Truth" by Dawn Cook..
This is what it's about:
Alissa is a headstrong, pragmatic child of the foothills, whose father has been missing since she was five. One morning her mother announces that Alissa must journey to the Hold, the magical place of stories her papa had told her, where gifted people are trained to be Keepers by the mysterious Masters. Her mother has seen signs that Alissa has inherited her father's talents and must be trained. Against her will, Alissa sets out across the prewinter plains. She meets Strell, a light-hearted minstrel who has a penchant for irritating her, but who has a map. A partnership is born. Neither partner knows that at the Hold the evil Bailic has dispatched the Masters and murdered the Keepers--Alissa's father among them. Bailic wants the book of First Truth, and to rule the land with it. When Alissa and Strell arrive, Bailic soon comprehends that one of them can help him find the book. A beautifully told, simple story that looks unblinkingly at how prejudice unnecessarily reinforces misconceptions, misunderstandings, and hatred.
Can't say anything about it yet. Only read 15 pages.
BUT OH! I almost forgot! I read Breaking Dawn!! And almost everyone told me it's dreadful, but to be honest - I liked it very much. Of course there were some szenes where even I had a funny look on my face. Everybody hated the end, but I do like it. But I'm not aloud to write much about it yet - still have friends, who haven't read it. Damn. I'm dying to talk about it!
So.. My friend from Austria was here for a couple of days. I showed her the places I usually go to, she wanted to see where I grew up, where I used to play, where I hang out when I am sad.
It was quite a lot of fun and I'm sad that she had to leave so early. If she had stayed here for another week, I guess I could have showed her everything of Frankfurt. Oh well. I never ate so often at Subways, lol. Kind of like it, though. Something else than all that fast food crap. Plus, she's a vegetarian, so I ate vegetarian food with her. Quite tasty, guess I could get used to it and I'll cook it more often. Kelly the vegetarian. Not a bad idea, I guess.
So the next few days I have to go to the jobcenter. I'm on the waiting list for the university, but just in case that they won't take me, I'll try to get another job to learn. Oh man, I always wanted to study and now suddenly I have to think of a Job that I want to learn. I have no idea. I guess something creative, or social. I have to wait what the guy at the Job Center tells me, but I hope I'll find something soon.
Hmm.. I don't know my life is kind of boring right now. Exept that I go outside a lot more often. I walk around, I wander. I don't know why I'm so restless, I'm like a cat. I can't sit still and mostly I'm outside to think about stuff.
But I started a new Author. To be Honest, I never read a word of him. I had the book for about a year, I never got interested, but now I decided to give him a try. Christian Jacq. He's not bad, but I only started yesterday so I only read about 200 pages or something.
So, I still have a lot to read. Over 60 books. Damn. But I'll make it. This year, I allready read almost 100. (That's a lot of books, people!)
Barbaras Birthday is getting nearer every day and I hope she will simply love her presents. I hope I won't start crying, like last year on her birthday. It's always that way. I'm depressed, I drink, first I'm happy, then in the end, I start crying. And it's still the god damn reason as last year and I don't understand why even after one whole year I just can't simply forget him.
Don't think about it Kelly.
Ah I know I'm not writing often enough anymore, but right now, there is nothing happening. Only that I mostly can't sleep well, I wander around. I just think too much And... My sister had her second daughter. I'm happy for her! I've seen pictures, and she really is cute!
Oh and now I do know something: Went to the PX today, with my eldest Sister Joy and her husband. I know I'm a american myself but most of the time I just can't help it: I simply roll my eyes when it comes to some americans. Paris Hilfton as a president? Oh come on, give me a break. What's going to happen to the White House, is it going to turn pink or what? Actually, maybe I don't even want to imagine. On MTV there are constantly shows with americans .... Oh man. I accidently flipped on MTV and there she was: New York. I mean ok, could you please show some intelligence?
It's the same with the PX. It's like americans hate Goths even more than germans and think we are all sooo bad. You just can't imagine how stupid they looked at me because I have 3 earrings on each side and totally black clothes with a Blind Guardian Jacket. It has a dragon on the back. They stared at me like I was dirt or something like that. Something bad. Can anyone explain this, please?
Only ONE guy was nice. He asked me how I was doing today and if I like the weather. Small talk. Argh. Honestly, I would love to know what's going on in their head. Everybody who really knows me, also knows my opinion when it comes to america. I have my reasons thinking that way. I don't know how often I had arguments with soldiers. When I went to the consulate for my new passport, I saw this one soldier who seemed pretty proud to wear his uniform. Right on the side this huge poster... "HAVE YOU SEEN THESE TERROISTS?" And he really gave me a nasty grin, that guy.
Wonder when I'll have the next argument with a soldier.