So, right now, I'm back. I needed a break for the last few weeks, I haven't been feeling too well, but right now, I feel fine, except that I have to work quite a lot and the job is not very easy.
I'm happy when I'll find a new one, maybe one of the bookshops which I asked two months ago need new people now - we'll see. It would be an Opportunity to earn more money.
I had a couple of problems with my boss, I also have some problems in private live, but I know myself - The little warrior, who will stand up and fight. This time, it happened even faster than I thought, and I only want to say a last few words to someone who can just leave my life:
Aren't you ashamed of yourself? You know, if I would have known about the other girl earlier, I would have send you right into the desert allready, and not now, now, where the damage has been done. SHE doesn't know anything about it, but I would quite love to tell her what a jerk you are! She's pregnant god damnit! And I didn't know ANYTHING about her, who told me? Your EX! Who actually still lives at your place! Who the hell are you kidding, man? I hope you won't play the girl again, damn, she's pregnant, she deserves more than something like that! Your becoming a FATHER. Take some Responsibility, you're 25, not 15!
I don't wish to talk to you again. You exactly know why, and I don't need people who lie to me, and you seemed to have done that quite a lot and very often. You know, I'd even rather talk to my ex again, at least HE did know, that he made mistakes.
And you, you just run away because your afraid of the truth! And the truth would be that YOU did something eternally wrong and absurd and I could just kick you for betraying your PREGNANT GIRLFRIEND!!!! And I will NOT help you with this crap when it comes to cheating! I am no little darling who shares, and I am certainly not going to live with the thought that there is another girl who's pregnant.
So live your life and I will live mine! I do hope, you will learn, that playing girls is not the best thing to do.
(This theme has ended, anyone who's interested, just send me a comment or something like that)
So, I let out my negative feelings.
But of course it's not really the only thing, which I wanted to talk about. A couple of days ago, I watched a little TV after work (or was it before? I don't quite remember).. Well, there he was, the pope, talking about abortion and sex and alcohol.
Everybody, who knows me, also knows that I'm critical. So there I sat, while he said that abortion is murder, and that no woman should do something like that. And I thought... Well, what about women, who got raped and get pregnant? Honestly, I admire woman, who can do it, but there are some, they just can't do it. They always think about the men, who raped them. Aren't they then aloud to just decide for themselves? Some will say, that when the baby is born it could be adopted, but just think - this woman will carry a child from her RAPER for 9 months. Is this then murder, or is it a way to save themselves from more physical stress, that they have?
Also the commercial of today. It tells us, that only slim women are sexy, pretty and worth looking at. But not every woman can be slim. Not every woman wants to be slim. What about them? Are they ugly, just because they don't follow commercials, or whatever this world wants? That's why I like the dove commercials. THEY show women, who have all kind of figures, and not only slim ones. Look at the models, look how they hunger, in order to wear clothes size 0 just to please everyone. And girls look at these models and want to look at them and stop eating, because they are scared to gain weight.
Other girls want to destroy themselves, others think they deserve it that way, and others think they don't deserve. Gosh that makes me so sad. Beautiful girls, who hunger, out of different reasons. Okay, I'm no better, but still. What is this about having to be slim? Come on people, not everyone can be a Heidi Klum. And I don't think, that every guy out there only likes slim girls.
It's not only about how you look, but also about who the hell you are. Even if you're very pretty, what use is it, if you have no brains at all? What use is it to be slim, or pretty, if you have a bad character?
We live in a world, where most people think that the looks count the most, and forget over these things, that it's the character that make people, and not only make-up, clothes, or looks. It's rather sad to see something like that.
So, I actually didn't have any time to write, because of work. I'm fine, just tired, but I'll live
So, some were wondering, how my work place is, what I do, how everything works out. Well, quite a few know, that I work at the golden M.
I could give you some information about how things run, and in the end, I'll write my personal opinion about it.
Well, we open at 9am. First shift starts at 8:30, you throw on the grills and everything else which is (or seems) important. At 9am usually another person starts his/her shift and takes orders, either through the Drive or in the restaurant itself. Since it's morning, we have the "breakfast time". Either someone carying for a burger at nine o' clock in the morning (...)? You'll gonna have to wait. Everything takes it's time in the morning, mostly there aren't as much customers anyways so we have time to fill everything up for the day (Cups, sauces, lids for the cups, the stuff for the ice cream and milkshakes etc.).
Usually by 11 or 12 another person starts his/her shift. At about 12, suddenly all customers start coming at once, since most people have their break and don't take food to work. And the kids come out of school by 1pm, so it's full from 12-2pm. Of course, nothing is done by then and people have to wait, what they don't like at all (I'll comment on this later). By 2 pm, finally the customers go back to work or go home or anything, and there aren't many there anymore (exept on friday, saturday, sunday, and sometimes mondays. There, for most of the time, it's full all day).
at 3 pm or 4 pm, more people come to work, and it's full again. Now it will be full until about 6pm or later, for most, it's the drive which is full. So everybody has to run around and help each other as much as we can.
There are different jobs which you have to do.
Cashier: You take orders in the restaurant, you put the "food" on the tablet, people always come to you, if they have something to bitch about, or if they need help, or if they have a question and so on. You help them as much as you can, and if needed, you have to go to the Shift leader. You also have to clean up or mop the floor, you have to simply everything.
Drive: Some don't understand, but I really hate the drive. You need a certain system, and if there are many cars, most likely there is a chance that you'll be pretty frustrated because nothing is ready. Usually, there is the order taker, the runner, and the presenter. In our restaurant, the person at the drive mostly has to do everything - runner, order taker and presenter. Unless the restaurant is empty and someone can help you. Believe me, it's no fun packing 5 menues, while there are 10 cars, or even more, behind the car that gave the order, everybody is hunking the horn and the guy in the car asks you if you just can't pack in much faster.
Kitchen: Almost everybody loves the kitchen - You don't see the guests, you have your own system, you just make the burgers, the salad, anything for the guests. I never was in the kitchen, so even if they would suddenly send me into the kitchen I would be pretty slow, so the cash-girls would probally scream their lung out because nothing is finished
My opinion? I have been working there for over a year. It's, for most of the time, funny, but the last few months were hard because so many people had vacation and everyone had to do extra shifts. So you had a lot of guests but no workers - tragic. My feet always hurt. The golden M is very much stress, and I mean it that way. People who can't cope with that, shouldn't start there. As a plus, not every guest is nice. They can be pretty unfriendly, and of course, you are certainly not aloud to open your mouth even though you would love to throw the food right into their face. Excuse me, you want to be treated with respect? Why the hell do you treat me like I was stupid or some kind of dirt? People ALWAYS think that we are stupid. Well, we are all educated, but some need money, just like you do, and if it weren't for US, people like YOU could not eat there. Think about that for just one second.
Oh and I love people who make everything dirty and then just leave. I would just simply love to see you do that in a normal restaurant. And do you also do that at home? I mean like, does your mother sweep your floor or something like that, that you drop half of your food or just leave everything on the table (and I don't only mean the tablet, I am also talking about ketchup and stuff like that). What are we, slaves? I mean of course we have to clean, but we mostly work 8 1/2 hours shifts, mostly even longer, we stand all stupid day, entertaining guests, and then you come a long throwing everything on the floor and act like your superman or something like that.
Bitching people because I forgot the sauce: Oh come on. I would like to see YOU work here, standing all day, running around all day, cleaning this and that, listening to all kinds of things and just talk to over a hundred people per day and NOT forget something. I mean, we don't do this on purpose. It's not like we think..."oh damn, I don't like his face, I'm not going to give him his stupid sauce, haha."
And, anybody wondering why we ask if you want any dessert, or anything else to your order and start blaffing "Did I say that?" right into our face: It's our job. We are supposed to do it, and it's nicer to ask if you would like anything else just to know if you're finished with ordering. No need to get mad at us.
So all in all, I think not half of the population could work at the golden M. It's too much stress and people will always think that you are not educated because you work there. For most, some people only work for 2-3 months and then leave, because they can't take it.
Anyways, I'm going to my friends house today. Haven't seen her for three weeks, neither of us had time because of work. I wonder what we'll do.
And in August, another friend from Austria will visit me. I'll have to clean up my room (urgh), and also check what I can do with her. She wants to go to the Zoo with me , but of course, that's not the only thing about frankfurt, plus, I would rather go to the Opel Zoo. We'll see. Maybe Barbara is free on the wednesday Cindy is here and we could do something together. I will also drag them both into the Cinema. And it will NOT be Sex and the City. I just can tell you that.
I also started a new book (I'm still reading, but mostly I forget to write them down in my blog - duh). Nina Harper - Succubus in the City. It's kind of funny, at least it's something new and not always the same stuff..
what it's about:
AFTER THREE THOUSAND YEARS OF ONE-NIGHT STANDS, A GIRL JUST WANTS A LITTLE MORE.
Working for Satan is a hot gig. The Devil really does wear Prada, and Lily can sport all the dazzling fashion she desires, eat all the fabulous food she craves, and hang for all eternity with her three demon girlfriends. But serving up bad boys to the fiery pits of Hell is just getting . . . lonely.
Lily gives the jerks, the creeps, and the liars the best (and last) night of their lives, but she’s tired of waking up to a pile of ashes. She wants a guy who will stick around.
BUT A MYSTERIOUS MAN IS TURNING UP THE HEAT. . . .
Nathan Coleman is a devilishly handsome, laid-back P.I. who wants to ask Lily a few questions about a missing man. But someone–or something–wants Lily and her friends dead, and Nathan seems to know more than he’ll admit to. Can a sweet-talking mortal and a girl from Hell find true love?
So now I think there will be an uproar. How just can you read something like that? It has to the with the devil, demons, and it tells you that satan is good lalala. Please - just stop it. I am old enough to read what I want without people thinking of me becoming a devil-worshipper.
Besides, I'm also waiting for Breaking Dawn. I have been waiting for Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer since December. I ordered the book on about the 10th of July, and I do hope that it will be here by the 4th of August or I am simply going bezerk because I want to know how the hell everything will end (even though, of course, I have my theories, just like everyone else.)
So folks, I'll end here today. You have quite a lot to read. Anyone, who wants to hear more about books I read? Just tell me, I'll post more. I almost have 300 books at home, that'll give you tons of information. Until then, goodbye.